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| Hey girls and boys (if any),
How are you doing? I think I've refound my strength. FINALLY!
Yesterday I had about 850 cals. Which is good. Not great, but good.
Today I'm going to follow through. I just had some strawberries and 2 kiwi's for breakfast + green tea.
When I'm done with this I'll go running with my dog and after that I think I'll just go sunbathing:)
I will lose those pounds!
Good luck to you and me<3
This is Emma, a Belgian fashion blog writer. She's great.
And I happen to have the jacket she wears here;) It's from Zara.
On top of having great fashion sense, Emma is also very tiny/skinny/gorgeous. Look at those legs.. | | |
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WTF
what's wrong with me? I've just been eating like a pig these last couple of days. Just eating eating eating until My stomch hurt so much I really couldn't eat anymore. After only an hour I started eating/drinking (alcohol) again. I've gained back all the weight I had lost... I feel horrible. I HAVE TO GET SKINNY. I ABSOLUTELY HATE THE FAT ON MY BODY. I'M DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF.
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| My last post was about how my Ipod got stolen.
Well, that's really nothing compared to what's happened to my parents. They only just found out that in Italy they have been (what in Dutch is called) 'skimmed'. It means that criminals have somehow copied their bankpasses and codes. Over the last days lots and lots of money has been taken from both of my parents acounts.
So stress is back in the house and it's no fun at all. I was glad they're back at first. Somehow I find it easier to stick to my diet when my parents are around than when they're gone. I know this sounds weird, but I guess I used food to comfort me when I felt lonely. Now that they're back (for 3 days now), I've been doing great. Sunday only 400 cals and, today about 1300, but I had good outtake. I'm not too unhappy with myself. Which is good because just before my parents came back I was really starting to hate myself for having no self controll whatsoever. So at least I've almost found back the trust in myself. I CAN do this.
Tomorrow my bf will come over again. Looking forward to it:)
Hope you're all doing well.
X
Some thinspo:
Photography from NYC, amazing
(L) the skinny wrists
Feel like screaming myself...
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Comes around..
This was the case, for me anyway. And I had told myself so, before all of this happened. Karma really is a bitch.
You see, P and I dated for almost a year. But P had problems and because I couldn't handle those at the time, I broke up with him. W was there for me and he was everything P had not been for the last couple of months before our break-up. W and I hooked up and became a couple. This was only a month after P. While a was together with W, I very quickly realised that this just wasn't it. As much as I did like W, there was just not enough depth to what we had together. We were simply attracted to eachother. More physically than emotionly. Within two weeks I missed P like crazy... So I broke up with W and within a week got back together with P.
Anyway, although I told myself I had every right to act the way that I acted (after all, I couldn't help my feelings right?and I hadn't cheated or anything...), I do realise I've been a little selfish. I was making decisions that seemed best for me, but I hurt both of them with it. And last week I suddenly knew; this was going to get back to me. One way or another.
And it did. Sunday night. I was home alone. Since everyone knew, naturely there would be a party over at my place. It was fun at first. My best friends were there and some collegues too. Unfortunately those two groups both include one of my ex-boyfriends W and P. W invited friends over without my permission. P got frustrated with those guys and they were told to leave. Since I didn't like or trust them very much either I was happy they did.. untill I found out with what they had left. They've taken my 16G Ipod-touch, €30,- from a friend, and lots of alcohol.
Now I'm all upset because of what happened, my parents are upset with me and my colleagues because as I was trying to found out who did it, I involved many people.
I'm very upset that people who are friends of my friends, stole from my house when they weren't even welcome in the first place. It sucks and it makes me look like a fool. Plus, people are yet again talking negative about me.
They did too when the whole W and P thing was going on... I guess karma really is a bitch. I got back what pain I cost, but it's enough now. I not very good at dealing with this but I will try. I can't let this get me down too much, can't loose my shine, can't let other people think that they're better than me and that they can do this to me.
Because, like I said, what goes around...comes around... and the guy who stole from me will have to pay the price.
One plus point, because of the stressing about the whole situation I can't eat and I'm losing weight:)
Love, Anne
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